i've let this feeling go already..
yet...still, it just keeps on coming back..
the longing..the depression..
bakit sa tuwing gusto ko maging masaya..
ako mismo ay nagdidilang anghel...
ngunit para sa ibang tao..
at ako'y patuloy nang nalulugmok sa mundo ko ng kalungkutan..
i'm such a cynic..yet..it seems as if i still am hoping for her to see me more than what she is used to..
why can't i just let her go..i already did just a couple of months ago...
at least i thought i did...
now..i still have my barriers that protect me from falling again into the same situation...again..my cynic ways..
but still..all that i feel for her...is eating me up inside...
why am i back where i was before...
why can't i get out of this abyss...
why do i continue to fall for her...
why can't i just find someone else to fall for...
bakit pag umibig ka...siya lang talaga ang nakikita mo..
tama nga mga kaibigan ko..parang ung kabayo sa kalesa...
tinatakpan ang gilid ng mga mata nila upang ang kalsada lang ang tanging makita nila..
sa akin..ganun na nga..siya lang ang nakikita ko...
kahit na anong pilit ko na tumingin sa iba...
walang kawala...
pano naman kasi..una...una...una...
di ko na ba maiiwasan ito...
i know that i can never be enough to replace your whatever...
shall i let go...
let go and free myself from drowning again in your sea of oblivion..
or
let go of my defenses...and just let myself continue to fall into an abyss of illusional hope that your eyes will meet mine and see me as i see you....
