another requiem to bid farewell to everything we had...
a requiem that keeps on playing in my head...
thought i said goodbye but instead
it looks like i'll keep on coming back for more...
for more tears to shed...
what used to be vivid images
now slowly turns into a blur
everything now fades away
as if it were all just a daze...
february 8
when i fall i fall hard
unfortunately i'm not used to being caught
so i always fall face first
on the cold cement floor
i now cautiously watch my step
every now and then
for no one else other than myself...
will pick me up from this mess that i made
so tell me..
how could it be..
you're here...
tell me...
what should i expect?
cause apparently..
i'm not used to the thought
of you and me...
so what else is there..
cause i just can't comprehend..
how something like this could happen..
and of all people..to me..
cause apparently..
i'm not used to the idea
of you and me...
unanswered calls..
silent replies..
an open hand...
now gone in a memory..
a life anew
with you
march 23 am
falling so unexpectedly...
yet falling so fast..
falling even further...
into a cycle of emotions and thoughts...
allowing to penetrate my defenses
inch by inch..
the closer we get..
the more confusion swallows me whole
still having a struggle
with moving forward
to close the gap
and forget a bitter past
yet open to everything you give me
and doors welcoming your arrival
into this possible tryst
that i slowly and unknowingly have taken a leap into
all this to start a life...
a love...
anew..
with you...
